Pondering bachelorhood

Ever have one of those days where everyone’s busy or unreachable and you find yourself scrolling through the phone book of your cell phone trying to think of someone to call and hang out with or just talk to and shoot the breeze?  I found myself doing just that this evening.  I hate when that happens!  Of course just statistically speaking that will happen from time-to-time.  It’s almost like going through withdrawal when you don’t actually have the option of choosing who you’re going to hang out with.  I’m not some kind of uber socialite but I have enough friends so that on weekends I find myself having to choose who I’m going to hang out with,  or many times I have at least one guest both Saturday and Sunday at my house.  It’s ironic that at times you think you can’t get a moment of peace, but when you get that peace you find that you don’t want to spend it alone to begin with.  Now don’t get me wrong, my house is not empty by any stretch of the imagination as my mom and paternal grandparents live with me, but it’s the companionship of my peers which I sought after this evening.  I see my family every day for cryin’ out loud!  Today was one of those slow days and I was irritated and bummed out ’cause I really wanted to hang out but was grasping for straws to find someone available!  Finally one of my friends was awaken by my text messages and then planned to meet him for some coffee or whatever later that evening.     I guess it happens to most people…you get to a certain age and you begin asking yourself if you’ve been a bachelor long enough?  When does the running around become enough? 25? 30? 35? 40?  I’m approaching 30.  This October I’ll turn it.  This topic’s been on my mind for the past year-two.  Is it time to settle down?  Is it time to start a family so that you’re not pushing a walker at your kid(s) high-school graduation?  Is it time to start your family so that you have some quality years left with your spouse before you slow down and become old and shriveled and forgot what you had for breakfast yesterday?  Being unmarried definitely has its advantages and freedoms but on the other hand it gets lonely…Many of my high school classmates are married and some have children.  It’s a empty feeling, feeling like you’re left behind.  And it stirs up jealousy within you.  It’s not a light decision.  It’s frightening to choose someone to spend the rest of your life with.  Divorce sucks – I am a product of divorced parents.  Not having both parents around is a traumatizing experience for a child.  I don’t know just how much this has affected my father, but I know my parents divorce has changed my mother for life.